...i got out of bed today kids, just for you...

...i got out of bed today kids, just for you!...no...the batteries died...still, i could have turned to old fashioned wind up toys, and i didn't...

...i ran into an old friend, and remembering other old friends, took me back to childhood and the next door neighbours...my brother was extremely well behaved and ever so polite...those genes never filtered down to me, as many of you will attest to...when he was just a wee tot, the teenager next door was named norma, and i guess she was yelled at a lot, so he came to believe that 'norma' was a swear word...when he got really cheesed off he would shout "you norma!!"...and feel much better about everything...

...so what is it with swearing anyway, who decides, besides my dear late father xox, just what is swearing?...we got spanked for swearing when i was a kid and let me tell you, there were a lot more swear words then, than there are now...but really, what is it that makes a word 'bad'?...in this politically correct minefield we walk through now, tons of words that can be plain and simple, also get interpreted as hate if put in the wrong context...i think that's why i like the word fuck...there are no people named fuck, no people from fuck, etc. so really why is fuck a swear word, a 'bad' word?...

...i say fuck a lot when i am tired...it seems to appear in my conversation like it had a mind of it's own, even when i'm writing...i tend not to go back and pretty my writing up, clean it up, so there it stays...in speech, i think i say fuck, fucking, fuckin', fucked like an oral exclamation mark, like it will pull out the energy and emphasis that my other words just don't seem to project...

...kids, think about what it is that you say, either out loud or to yourself (or even on paper like me), when you 'lose it'...why do you say that? does it feel good? is it bad? is it nasty? shocking? need to have your mouth washed out with soap?...now what the fuck is that all about? washing the dirty words away? 'too late mommy, they are gone, and if anything needs washing now, it would be YOUR ears'...my parents saved soap for the really dirty bits, like hands, feet and bums ('bum, bum'...that was a swear word in lulu's little corner of the childhood world)...do i just curse, or am i cursed?